Again...THE THOUGHT OF YOU

10/4/2016

It wasn't as easy as  I thought it'll be. Trust me, I tried. I tried to avoid the sight of you,I tried to act normal. I did, I did act fine. It wasn't an easy act like how easy it looks. With a kind of feeling like thousands and millions of butterflies in my stomach, it was super tough to pretend like nothing happened.


11/4/2016

Woohooooo!!! Such a blessed day that you didn't appear in front of my eyes. Stop lying. My eyes were just wandering around looking for you while I was pretending to be having fun with my friends.Where did you went to? Fine,you would have been here if you'd known these eyes are looking for you every single day. Your friends were here though.Where were you?Uurrgghhhhh.


12/4/2016

WEEKEND IS HERE AGAIN, I DID NOT SEE YOU AT ALL TODAY. IT'S FINE,I'M STILL BREATHING,I HAVE MY OWN LIFE TO HANDLE.


13/4/2016

Durrrrrr,I was studying fine......why did my brain and mind left the syllabus nicely and pulled you in? I'm not tired of it,I'm just hating the fact that nothing is going to happen with you in my brain all the time.Went to get an ice-cream due to overstress. "Oh my God!!! Is this a joke??? You are here!...okay I should pretend fine,"  If only my mind voice was heard out loud, the shop I was in would have undergone a mini earthquake.


14/4/2016

I smiled widely looking like a mentally ill patient and all you did was just to stare at me and give me a look as though as you're wondering if  I am an alien. If it was someone else,I would have straight up went and slapped or at least screamed for not smiling back.Since it was you, I had to walk away like nothing happened. Well, I don't think I'll be able  to stand straight in front of you for even five seconds.


15/4/2016

You posted that you were happy about her smiling at you. Well, "Who's the pretty little girl that this little boy fell for?," is what my mind asked me when I read his post. It's fine,kids fell for all these little thing. I didn't know how else to calm myself. I was totally fine. After all,his happiness is what matters to me.


16/4/2016

Haihhhh,his smile got my heart to skip so many beats. Fortunately  I didn't pass out. And he walked beside me todayyyyy!!! If only  I was able to stop time,I would have stopped it  and never started it back again. That 3-4 seconds were so precious for me.Hahaha, I don't think you even realised that I was walking beside you with all those invisible butterflies in me.


17/4/2016

I got energy to write yet  I will write. I still can't believe that you came up  to me and talked. Wait,what? How am  I still breathing when you took my  heart away?


20/4/2016

Sunday it is.You introduced me to your girl friend. I am still thinking trying to figure out if I am happy for you. Really happy,to be honest. I felt truly gifted when you talked to me first. But happiness doesn't last forever right? You're still in my heart,then,now  and forever.