"Dad......are you still there?"

"Dad,are you still there?.....for me?"  You were always there being the shoulder for me to lean on but now, where have you been?

Why is your hand holding someone else's hand when it's supposed to be holding mine?

Why are your eyes tearing up for her when your heart is supposed to be happy for me?

Why are you pushing me away every time I come closer to you?

Why do you talk to me only when I'm about to leave and not when I was down?

How can you completely trust an unknown lady that you knew for a fortnight but not me,who you knew for more that 10 years?

Why are you letting me be alone now when once upon a time, you struggled so much to make sure I always have a company?

Is it hard for you to talk to me?But weren't you the one who used to loved listening to my voice?

Am I burdening you with all my rants? But weren't you the one who asked me to let you know whatever that have been going on around me,from A to Z?

I have always wanted to be the rose in your life which is full of thorns. You didn't allow me. You said I was too young for it.
I wanted to talk things out to you, I wanted to clarify things with you so that we can have a long lasting dad and daughter relationship.You asked me to not waste my time talking. You asked me to study and achieve well. I thought that will make you happy and I did tried my best. You were still not happy with it,despite knowing how much effort I put in. You compared me with other kids, I was heartbroken yet I said nothing.

I explained to you all my expenses, you nodded but never listened and when I asked you for money, you said I don't understand the worth of money. Weren't you the one who didn't listen to me explaining? My friends spend more than me, they're given more money, when I told you about it,you asked me not to compare.You asked me to shut up and get lost. But weren't you the one who compared me with my friends?

It's been years since we smiled to each other. We have no reason to smile or laugh together now. You are still happily laughing, not with me but with another lady who took my place. I'm neither angry nor sad,I'm happy for you. Happy to know that you are even happier not with me. I am tired of hoping, but still not giving up to hope that one day, we will talk,we will laugh together, we will be the happiest daughter and dad. My heart still whispers it'll be impossible, I trust my confidence,my hope. We will be back.