HE'S A GUY...SO WHAT?

They laughed at him. Being in this 21st century,in midst of people with tons of skills, abilities and especially, intelligence, there's still existence of this 😎😎outdated mindset that has remained from  the last century where it's shameful for a boy or a man to cry. ON TOP OF THIS, WHEN ONE CRIES THERE'LL BE THIS JUDGEMENT; WHY IS HE CRYING LIKE A GIRL? No...just because he cried, he is not a cry baby, he's neither a girl, he is also not being childish.He is expressing himself, he's a human being too, he has feelings too. At times, he doesn't know if he should express his feelings worrying that he'll be judged. He does get hurt. He does breakdown.  He had gave up before. All because, he's a human, he has feelings too. 

  

He was in a relationship with this girl when he was 18, too young to be in love, thinking it was going to last life-long, he blindly put himself into a trouble. She was a real ludic, she was extremely gorgeous. Unknowingly falling for her beauty was the very first mistake. Few days passed, they were going pretty fine. He started to feel comfortable with her even though at certain times, his eleutheromaniac side will show up yet he accepted that one will lose his/her freedom once in a relationship. Little did he knew that relationships are supposed to let you be yourself  and not challenge your freedom. Time passed and unexpectedly things were not on smooth sailing . He has always been patient,he was accepting her for who she was.He was being perfectly honest.She was the way around. Within 46 days  of being together,she told him that another guy loves him  and that she had some kind of  feelings towards that boy. LISTENING TO HER TELLING THIS ACTUALLY MADE HIM FEEL SO INSECURE. He told no one about it.He kept it to himself thinking that it wasn't not a matter to be bothered about. They began to have small fights more frequently for which they won't be in talking terms from days to weeks. On the 86th day of their relationship, out of nowhere, she suddenly went to him and said that everything is over and that she thinks that they both won't work out.  He was shocked, his heart skipped a beat.Everything felt like fantasy. He quickly started to say sorry and he kept on pleading her telling that they can both work this out. She didn't give a damn about him and walked  away,like nothing happened. He cried and cried and cried. She saw him crying and quietly whispered "Little boy,stop crying".It hurted.It  was painful,more than being stabbed by a knife.He lost his trust. He started to assume all girls cheat. Kind girls with golden heart exist. He never knew it. He completely lost his trust.

Now that it's been two years since everything happened,she had found herself a new boyfriend while it was just 6 months of breaking up. He's alone. He's afraid he'll make another mistake again.He doesn't want to waste his love on someone who doesn't deserve it.  It was also his mistake for not choosing  the right one. For some reason,he seemed  to notice how beautiful she was.  He was blinded by her beauty when beauty is actually more than skin deep. She's one of his biggest lesson. He cried, yet he grew stronger. He never regretted for crying, eventhough people laughed at him. He now knows,it's all fine and that emotions  are meant to be expressed. Quietly, he whispered  to himself, I'll find my princess, to whom I'll fall in love not because of her looks but because of her attitude,her behaviours, because of her being herself.